My New Digital Home

 I’m going to move over to exclusively using Dreamwidth.   I really appreciate that there is so little AI and reposts here.  plus, as I’ve mentioned before the lack of word count limits allow for more self expression.  I just really enjoy reading about people’s lives and other platforms don’t allow for that.   I do wish there were more people here to get to know but sometimes less is more.  I’m also tired of the constant political posts elsewhere.   I feel like people have exchanged meaningful action through things like sustained boycotts, community volunteer opportunities and reducing energy usage for online virtue signaling via rage posts.  I’m not sure what the solution for our current issues here in the US are, but it certainly isn’t making rage posts on pages that line the pockets of the people in charge.

I feel so thankful and lucky due to not really being sick anymore but every time I log onto one of those places it zaps the energy from me.   it’s too fast, too short, too divisive, there’s too much AI and not enough human thought.   It sort of reminds me of that sci-fi trope where psychics go crazy becuase they can hear everyone’s internal monologue and have no means to control it.  

It’s quieter here.   I like that.  We need spaces that encourage us to think more not less.

 

Thursday 5.21.2026

 I guess it's almost the end of the week and I guess it's been pretty good on a personal level.  My meds continue to work though last night I did almost throw up while cooking onions which are often listed as a CVS trigger.  So, perhaps I need to avoid them.  The house is looking much cleaner thanks to the meds.  I had no idea how much my condition was diminishing my energy levels.  I'm now able to get done in an hour things that would have taken me a month two or three weeks ago.

Yesterday, I had the energy and motivation to fix my haircut.  I've gone to the salon at least three times and asked for a very severe blunt cut bob  with a blunt slightly rounded bang only to walk out with a layered thinned stacked a line bob.  Haircuts are not cheap here.  For the 80-120 USD I'm paying, I expect to walk out with the cut I asked for not one the stylist thought would look better.  "Oh, that's going to be really severe"... Yes, it is, thank you, that's why I picked it.  The scissors where expensive (56USD) but still  much less than I would have paid at a non corporate salon.  The cut was easy enough to do.  I grew up around salons and one of my uncles, Estevan (RIP) was kind enough to teach me some of the basics over my years hanging out.  This cut was just a simple straight line done with scissors just above ear length all the way around, another line a quarter inch above my brow and a slight undercut.  So now I have a sort of mod, Lynn Yaeger but make it thicker helmet bob.  I love it.  It's severe and unconventional, I don't have to rely on products and I look like some science fiction character I can't quite remember.  

Maybe I'll share a photo later, maybe not.  

In celebration of my new hair, I'd really like to make myself some new dresses.  I used to work in costuming for a theatre group, then later did some drag design work (which was actually awful much to my surprise). Going further back, to highschool, I took a clothing design elective all four years.  I stopped sewing though when I was at uni due to trauma that I've tied to the sound of the machine and a tendency to suffer what I now know are CVS attacks after sewing for a a half hour or so.  Now that my CVS is medicated, maybe I can break that trauma association the way I have been with other things.

Today I should probably head over to our community garden plot.  It's rained for the last three days off and on so we left it to its own devices.  Having just weeded and planted we figured it would be fine.  I'm excited to see if my green flesh ayote squash seeds have sprouted. 

Later tonight I'll get back to reading Through Darkest America.  Reading through it this time has been very difficult for me due to the subject matter.  I almost decided to put it down but picked it back up when I learned there is a sequel which might provide more resolution than the current book's end.  

I've started to play Trials of Mana as a recovery tool.  I can't read about that horrible universe without a little pick me up after and since I don't drink, smoke/do drugs... another, more hopeful piece of media will do.  

That's all I can think to write for now.

If you're reading this, I hope you have the best day possible.  <3

Bad News Bunny

I just got back from the community garden.  Something has eaten most of our cabbage a good percent of our kale, many of our marigolds and all the tops off our beets.  I'm assuming a rabbit is to blame.  I'm going to get john to come back with me tonight so we can put a little chicken wire fence around it.  Hopefully doing that will fix the issue so we can have some fresh veggies this summer.