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Feb. 18th, 2026 11:16 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
embracingcalmSomething strange happened to my body about a half an hour ago. I almost fainted I guess. I had been walking my dog who noticed a couple of geese and didn't want to move. I sat and stayed with him for a moment. Then picked him up (he is very wee) to carry him a few feet so we could continue our walk but as I started to stand with him my vision began to strobe. I somehow managed to sit back down for a moment still holding him then tried again and slowly made my way back to my door all the while with everything bright and my point of focus hyper defined.
As soon as I made it in I called out for my husband who came down got me an ice water and escorted me upstairs. I've thrown up once since. My body still feels strange. Everything is still bright. In the moment, I thought I might die, I had a near death experience about 17 years ago now when this started to happen it felt and looked the same, the shuttering of light, the clear cognitive disconnect from... something. My Vessel? I was untethered. I don't think I want to die yet though I am desprately saddened by our collective situation.
I'm going to try to rest. Maybe sleep will help. I feel so strange.
As soon as I made it in I called out for my husband who came down got me an ice water and escorted me upstairs. I've thrown up once since. My body still feels strange. Everything is still bright. In the moment, I thought I might die, I had a near death experience about 17 years ago now when this started to happen it felt and looked the same, the shuttering of light, the clear cognitive disconnect from... something. My Vessel? I was untethered. I don't think I want to die yet though I am desprately saddened by our collective situation.
I'm going to try to rest. Maybe sleep will help. I feel so strange.
